There are days when the issues on our plates seem too large to resolve, or at least, too large to steer...
Those are the days you are running around trying to find the handle, the wheel... some component of your issue or to do list that gives you a sense of control...
Those are the days when it is hard to get out of bed... at least for me.
It's probably a function of control.
I would never have described myself as a control freak, but enough people have made that comment for me not to at least consider the possibility.
I do believe it is seeking "control" of some level that fills my days...
It's perhaps why I am so enamored with the constant concept of harmony, as it is a constant reminder that all I can truly "control", or more accurately, the ONLY moment in which I exist and can affect my future is THIS one!
I struggle some days to get out of bed, because I am afraid about the possibility of failure. Less for myself... I can stomach the idea of failing myself... heck I fail myself everyday in some way...
When I think about failing OTHERS... where my failures can negatively impact others... that is when my mind races and disharmony starts...
Again - is it a realistic expectation never to "fail", nor make mistakes... probably not. Should it be my inspiration to do that as infrequently as possible, and ideally never, sure.
I can't stand the idea of failing others... and I also know that I have failed and will fail again.
Failure, as much as I hate to admit it, is an option. And, when I accept that, then I stay mindfully in a place to avoid it, minimize it, and simply do my best.
On the other side of failure is just another challenge... another situation to work through... another problem to solve.
Life has taught me that I can steer complicated things...
Failure is an option as part of the journey, and I do believe that you truly never "FAIL" unless you give up. And, I never give up.
I asked my elevator partner this morning, "Are you ready for the day?"
She gave me a resounding "NO!"
That's not me.
Once I get out of bed... I AM READY! I AM FIGHTING FORWARD! I AM SOLVING PROBLEMS!
Failure in the moment is an option, clearly never the preferred option.
Once you ACCEPT that, and along with it, OWN your ability NOT TO GIVE UP on it....
Once you embrace your ability to continue to steer and climb and fight forward and resolve...
you realize a step backwards isn't failure...
It's REALITY,
It's LIFE!
Are you ready for the day?
HELL YES!
in harmony,
Nestor