I had a great conversation yesterday with a colleague and a friend that I admire and appreciate...
We talked about passion.
It was a short conversation, but it unearthed a truth that caused me pause.
I am not "emotionally" engaged at work right now.
And, I have achieved that state deliberately. If I stay emotionally 'unattached',
I can execute my role responsibly and adequately, and I don't set myself up for disappointment.
It is a 'protection' mechanism that I take pride in.
It keeps me from going through the emotional ups and downs of some of my peers.
But, the cost of that 'uber rationality' is living without passion.
I like to be emotionally connected to my life.
In many ways I am at my best when I am 'feeling' the moment.
But, I have convinced myself of something very different - that the oppossite is true.
Now, don't get me wrong. It's not that I don't care.
It's that I divest my emotion from the situation.
So that, while I still care, I will not be altered by any outcome, and I will be minimally emotionally influenced by the possibility of either outcome. I will execute and be the voice of reason and rationality.
Where else in my life do I do this? Lots of places.
And, at what cost? At the cost of my passion... my joy.
Is there a way to unleash my emotion, while still letting my rationality drive?
That is a different thought for me... and potentially a very powerful one.
Unleash my emotion?
Commit to an answer before I know its real or true, and fail? Or feel the disappointment?
Could that be a much more joyful way to live?
People see me as so emotionally connected, and those who know me best know that I can be so extremely cold...
Behaviors we commit to so confidently...
Behaviors that we take pride in...
Can sometimes be so wrong...
Or at least, so incomplete.
Unleashing emotions?
Considering a different way of living...?
COMMITTING to MY DREAMS...
EMOTIONALY...
hmmm...
in harmony,
Nestor