Last night as I laid in bed
I thought...
Where was I 10 years ago?
and perhaps more importantly,
where will I BE 10 years from now?
I was looking at pictures...
10 years ago
my mother wasn't yet diagnosed with Alzheimer's...
my boys were just little boys...
running a company successfully was still a dream...
The great recession hadn't achieved its greatness...
I hadn't summarized for myself the concept of harmony...
so much felt so far away...
it seems like so long ago...
which begs the question,
where will I be
where will you be
10 years from now?
Will I be at all?
Who among us will suffer a great tragedy?
Who among us will achieve great success...?
Well my boys be healthy?
be married?
be happy?
which of my dreams will I have made true?
which will I still be pursuing?
will I manage to make some difference in the world around me?
will I feel stronger than I do today?
Will you?
Who knows?
in the spirit of pictures don't lie,
I look back and see
how much life has changed
how many emotions we've enjoyed
and endured. ..
I look at how much we've grown and how far we've come,
and I see how far we still have yet to go...
and yet...
Who knows what the future will bring?
what joy?
what sadness?
...
we cannot know,
and thus I would argue
we shouldn't care. ..
meaning that we should accept the vastness of all we can't control.
where are me we be in five years,
or three,
or one?
Who knows?
Who cares?
The older I get, the less time I spend thinking about who I want to be, and the more time I spend thinking about who I am...
Because who I am today is everything.
It is the only version of me that I can fully control...
The only version of me that can show love,
influence the world,
do harm or do good.
It's not really that I don't care what my life will look like in 10 years...
I certainly care...
but I must be careful caring too much about what I cannot control...
what I cannot affect...
because if it turns out differently, it will be a source of disharmony...
We cannot help but wonder about the future...
but the wisdom would argue...
WHERE WILL YOU BE TODAY?
WHO will you BE today?
Or better yet...
WHO ARE YOU... today?
Because WHO you are TODAY?
HOW YOU THINK TODAY?
WHAT YOU DO TODAY...
WHAT I DO TODAY...
Is by far the most important thing that I can do for tomorrow, for next year and for the next decade....
I laid in bed thinking about what my life might look like in 10 years...
and I smiled...
and my curiosity got the better of me...
may I be blessed to find out someday...
may I be fortunate enough to have the gift of another decade...
with the love and the beauty and the suffering that time inherently includes...
but I won't worry about WHERE MY LIFE will be then...
I can't worry...
I can't control that...
WHERE WILL MY LIFE...
WHERE WILL MY MIND,
MY HEART,
MY FOCUS
BE TODAY?
WHO WILL I BE TODAY?
Will I embrace my IS?
Will I act on my WANT?
TODAY...
because
who I AM...
IS
the greatest source
of who I will ever and always BE...
Nothing beyond this moment
is guaranteed...
And only this very moment can you influence...
WHO WILL YOU BE?
WHERE WILL YOUR MIND
YOUR LOVE
YOUR HEART
BE...
RIGHT
NOW...
in Harmony,
Nestor