I am ready to take on the world!
And, I have no idea why ;-)
That's not true, but it is so surprising and amazing how much mindset can PHYSICALLY affect you.
Two weeks ago, I struggled to get out of bed. The alarm was always too early. The bed was always too warm. The day was always a bit intimidating.
Now, I am pouncing out of bed. I wake up before the alarm. The bed is warm, but it will be there tomorrow. And, the day is a tremendous opportunity to move the needle forward.
WTF????
What changed?
If I had to sum it up briefly - I would point to two fundamental things:
1. ACCEPT DISHARMONY
2. DON'T STOP UNTIL YOU CAN RIDE YOUR WANT
ACCEPT DISHARMONY - Really? I thought this was all about embracing harmony and rejecting disharmony?
The Buddhists believe that SUFFERING is a fundamental and essential part of life, and I have fully accepted that. I am ready to see and experience death, mine and others. I am ok with failure (kind of). I truly believe that I am open and ready for suffering as life may bring it to me.
AND, for some reason, I have NO TOLERANCE in my mind for disharmony. There are times when It debilitates me. It slows me down. It disarms me. It EXHAUSTS me. And, I believe it is because I was WISHING that DISHARMONY didn't exist. And, we all know where wishing gets you...
Life is imperfect. Growth requires challenge. Life and growth will often, meaning every day, be met with DISHARMONY. It's all a part of it. Wishing anything else would be neglecting the truth of what life truly is.
So, I am embracing disharmony. There will always be some around me, and that is ok. It makes it for a TARGET RICH LIFE! This realization that I can't work fast enough or long enough or well enough to convert all disharmony in my life to harmony... JUST AINT GONNA HAPPEN.
And, that is the truth. But, that truth can't keep me from my WANT of a life of more and more harmony...
SO...
OFF I GO!
DON'T STOP TILL YOU RIDE YOUR WANT
The second thing was not stopping to explore, to try, to consider how to think and show up different until I was on the right side of my wants vs wishes.
I have said that:
WISHING, is longing for control over the uncontrollable.
WANTING, is exerting control over the controllable.
And, the latter is the only one that works!
That doesn't mean that there won't be days that you struggle to get your head out of the WISHING. It's human. BUT, DON'T TRY TO MOUNT WISHES... YOU CAN'T and YOU WON'T.
The more you try to mount your wishes... the further you drop into disharmony.
See, yours truly, EXHIBIT 1.
You have to keep on moving... keep on kicking your legs until you feel yourself start to move.
I hate using my weight too often as an example, but I feel like its such a SIGNAL of my harmony.
Over the past month, I was TRYING, WISHING, STRUGGLING, HOPING... to lose weight. I was REALLY, REALLY TRYING... and in the past 3 weeks - I GAINED 10 POUNDS! NO KIDDING!!!
In the past 5 days, as I have been ON THE RIGHT SIDE of what I can control... feeling greater harmony, I have lost 8!
That is why I can't neglect my weight.
It's NOT about the weight.
It's about all that is on my mind, that shows up as the wellness of my body.
I am feeling LARGE and IN CHARGE of my life.
NO, IT AIN'T PERFECT. It AIN'T ANY MORE OR LESS PERFECT than it was 2 weeks ago.
But, I got my mind right.
I am feeding off my truth, feeling grateful for all the blessings that I have and the opportunities that are before me.
I am accepting disharmony as part of the journey, and part of life.
I am riding my WANTS into the day...
And, celebrating small moments of harmony one at a time.
It's a lifetime of growth, a lifetime of challenge, and ever so slowly...
A lifetime of greater joy, peace of mind with some uncontrollable suffering...
And, THAT'S OK!
Never stop!
Yours in harmony,
Nestor