“I never have to be fat again.”
At least,
"I don’t have to be any fatter than I already am ;-)"
It’s a thought that crosses my mind.
A few months ago, I bought a beautiful tailored suit. (Don’t tell my wife ;-)
I did it as a treat to myself. I had done it before in 1997 in Hong Kong right before my first son was born.
The suit is wonderful. There is something so very perfect about the feel of a tailored suit. I feel like a million bucks when I am wearing it.
But, whenever I put it on.
FEAR fills my head.
“What happens if you gain weight?”
While it can be taken out, the suit was built to my measurements. A tailored suit, as I have learned, is supposed to fit like a glove, which means if you gain 10 lbs it wont fit very well.
So, whenever I put it on, I feel great and almost immediately I feel angst.
Weight to me is such a perfect example for harmony.
“I hope I don’t gain weight” is right along the lines of “I wish, I won’t gain weight”, which is a form of WISHING... which is a real moment of disharmony.
“I am up 8 or 10 lbs since my lowest point”, I think to myself.
“I have been trying unsuccessfully to take off those extra pounds. What if I continue to slide forward toward my old self?”
It is a moment when I have placed "my weight" as something that is simply outside of my control.
It is a very clear moment of DISHARMONY.
When I think that thought, then I think again.
“I don’t have to be fat again.”
The simple thought makes the angst go away, and reminds me that my weight is a function of what I eat, and what I eat is completely within my control, so why would I ever fear that?
So simple, so POWERFUL…
So TRUE,
so frequently underutilized,
so often failed.
From disharmony to harmony in a simple moment...and the possibility is there
in EVERY moment.
The thing about harmony…
And, weight…
And, life…
Is that it happens in these micromoments.
So, when I put on my suit and every part of it fits me exactly as its supposed to, I now theoretically can just enjoy feeling like"a million bucks"… and "know: that it will always fit.
I know I will fear again, as I always seem to when I put the suit on. But, I will use HARMONY to rethink that moment. And, over time, I will embrace the discipline that has kept me in check and free. And, eventually, as has happened with so many other aspects of my life... I will no longer feel that angst... that disharmony. I will own my WANT, and my control over my moments.
And, if I ever feel the angst,
OR, if I ever start to gain weight,
I just need to remember
that harmony is TAILORED
for me…
by me…
And when you tailor your own harmony,
you can make it out of any material you want.
You can make it uniquely yours… like no other!
Tailored harmony fits me perfectly ;-)
Disharmony is the absence of tailoring my own WANT…
Disharmony is not believing that there is a suit out there that fits perfectly.
Disharmony is experienced in moments when you stop believing in the perfect fit, in a better fit, in a better you... and in your own ability to craft you!
“I never have to be fat again…”
I never have to be in sustained disharmony again…
I just have to embrace the control I have over my moments
And neither my suit pants, nor my life will ever have to be
“taken out”…
And, then...
"I wish I hadn't bought that tie! ;-)... I will never wear it..."
It's a never ending process.
It's a lifelong discipline.
We should have a tailor-made suit at least once in our lives...
And, we should have tailor-made moments over and over and over again...
They fit us like a glove and make us feel like a million bucks ;-)
Yours in “tailored” harmony,
Nestor