Here’s why I can’t stop writing…
Because every day is a new day,
And every day we must continue to unwrap our gift…
It’s the moment we think we are done, that we stop living.
I do feel like I understand things better and better everyday, and I have this desire, this need, to try to do whatever I can to help you understand it better, and stick with it better…
Weekend Blues…
I’ve written about weekend blues before, and received a lot of comments from friends relating to the feeling.
I now feel less Weekend Blues, but still have “Blue Moments”.
Yesterday I went to work out with my son, and we had a fantastic time. I felt great.
Last night, I went to dinner with my two oldest sons and I felt great.
Friday night we had the last soccer game with my son and my beloved Warriors, and I felt really good.
I felt wonderful writing the harmony discussion yesterday about “Ultimate Harmony”.
We had a great drive with my wife to a friends’ party and relaxed and enjoyed time together in the car on Saturday night, which felt wonderful.
And, this morning watching some silly show about pointless videos on television, I felt blue.
And, this morning thinking about what I could be doing today to progress my work, I felt blue.
And, this morning as I sat on the couch and realized I could have been working out, I felt blue.
Moments of harmony.
Moments of disharmony.
Here is the thing… per the conversation yesterday…
Our moments are micro opportunities to LIVE! To CONSTRUCT! To GROW!
And, our moments in which we MOVE our lives forward are harmony and feel great.
And, our moments which we either spend WISHING we could, or WASTEFUL are disharmony and feel BLUE.
It’s that simple.
When we haven’t taken the time to think through our time, and prioritized our actions and our needs, we waste moments wishing we had more time on the weekend, dealing with whatever our concerns are in the absolute (problems and life are not solvable and addressable and progressable in the absolute).
We must break down our dreams and even our fears that might put our dreams at risk… into actions…
And, then when we spend moments in those actions, we enjoy, and when we spend moments wishing we had or not knowing the difference we angst.
One of the areas that we struggle with is where to place the priority of ourselves.
When I am working out, I feel good.
When I am relaxing writing, I feel good.
When I am conversing with family or friends, I feel good.
When I am reading, I feel good.
When I am laying on my hammock in the back yard… I am lost in this place between feeling great and feeling guilty. When I am relaxing, which I know rationally is important, I feel guilty.
I have grown now to where if I am relaxing and really clearing my mind… if I am in quiet thought… if I am thinking and resolving… or if I am just trying to quiet my mind… I feel like its valuable and important time.
When I am WASTEFUL… when I am filling my mind with nonsense, when I am “in between thoughts and actions” and lost in the middle of acting on one behalf or another… those are the places that make me angry, and change my mood.
I am more conscious of those moments and trying to make even my relaxing moments more harmonic ;-)
I have worked most of my weekend blues, to momentary blues… and now I must work on reducing those.
I have said for several years now that my only fear now is my fear of wasting time.
I don’t think it’s “fear”… I don’t know that I am “afraid” of wasting time.
I just don’t WANT to waste time, so when I do I get angry at myself. And, anger is wishing for things to be different. And, wishing is disharmony.
Not sure if you followed all of that… but the net of it is…
To have more moments happy and in harmony and growing, I need to be more deliberate with my moments and waste fewer of them.
Happiness is the absence of anger (wishing)
Success is the absence of stagnation.
Harmony is the presence of meaning & purpose (want)
Weekends place greater responsibility on ME (and US) to be DELIBERATE about our want.
Weekdays fill our days with actions that are hopefully in line with our wants…. And thus we must focus on execution.
Weekends fill our days with flexibility which requires greater will and higher risk of slipping into wishing.
Keep your blues momentary…
And celebrate consciously your momentary harmonies.
Yours back to weekdays,
Nestor