I was having a conversation with one of my favorite people on earth.
Mr. Harmony... his name is Mark, and ever since the first moment we spoke he bought into the concept of harmony.
He saw the value... He loved and embraced the concept fully.
Today, as so many do, he lives in more consistent and peaceful harmony than me.
I am energized listening to him - hearing the passion that he has for the concept and how he applies it to his life, to his business, to his family.
He is a remarkable man... and one of those people...
that lifts my soul...
makes me believe in my own writing,
even more than I already do...
Mr. Harmony gives it all away.
He gives me way too much credit.
And, there is a small part of me, deep inside my heart that wants to believe that I had anything to do with making his journey more meaningful... but he is the kind of guy who is always learning... growing... and finding harmony on his own.
It means the world to me that he reads this conversation without a miss.
... He has found his peace and now he is living it and celebrating it and sharing it and continuing to fight for and find harmony every step of the way... enjoying the ride.
As we talked, we talked about the difference between his harmony and mine. He has the harmony of faith... It's an absolute truth that gives him a different context for his moments.
He very much finds harmony in the moment and is a champion of the now... But his now is part of a greater truth, a certainty of love and worth anchored in faith that makes his harmony appear almost unshakeable.
He seeks truth and embraces the moment - but he is not trying to get a return on every moment. His "want" is possibly simply to live "true" and in peace.
Unlike so many of us, unlike me, he is not out to prove something with every moment... He is out there simply to be, to share and to spread love in every moment.
And, he is picking up momentum... And he seems happier than ever.
He wants peace in every moment - and he seems to be finding it.
He senses the disharmony I struggle with...
Where does that come from?
That need...
That want...
To get value and give value in every moment?
I think my disharmony comes from not feeling inherently worthy... Or maybe not consistently worthy.
I feel worthy sometimes, just not others. I haven't bought into the TOTALITY... The permanence of my worth. I am trying to prove my worth in every moment, and that creates disharmony in moments that you don't.
You prove your worth through getting or delivering knowledge... In every moment..
That feels so true to me...
Does the DESIRE to be more have to come from the sense of not being enough?
Can the DESIRE for being more simply come from the want of being better, and not from the sense of not being enough?
Mark shared with me a line from the bible that he often goes to ...
Mark 1:11...
11 And a voice came from heaven: “You are my Son, whom I love; with you I am well pleased.”
He said it out loud.
And, I felt tears immediately welling up in my eyes.
"YOU ARE MY SON
WHOM I LOVE
WITH YOU I AM WELL PLEASED..."
So simple.
So powerful.
It is perhaps my ultimate want...
to hear that...
to feel that...
to believe that..
It is perhaps the WANT that makes all other wants so unfulfilling...
Or so transient...
This is a sentiment that I never felt as a kid...
And have rarely felt as an adult...
to be well pleased with who I am...
It is a sentiment that I dream of hearing... That I dream of feeling...
How would I be different, how would we be different as a people, as a world... If we could all simply own that?
and then the question that lingered in my head was...
how well am I doing at conveying that sentiment to my boys? To those I love? to those I work with?
How do you balance conveying that sentiment along with living to create the need to grow, to improve, to evolve?
ah...
perhaps the ONLY way
to love...
to grow...
In harmony...
Is to believe that we are already enough...
To convey to those we love... To CONVINCE those we know they are ENOUGH... Perhaps that is the only way to grow in peace...
I know this is true...
an absolute truth...
bigger than any single moment.
We need to find the truth for harmony, and along the way we need to find the truths that transcend single moments.
These are the pillars of harmony...
I want to believe...
I don't want to prove myself in every moment...
I want to love...
To share...
To be true...
I want to be,
I want you to be
well pleased...
with who we are in totality...
In harmony...
And build our moments
our future
from there
from enough...
Nestor