I often wonder, am I living the life I love or am I living simply living the life I am living?
How much of what I do is by deliberate choice and how much of what I do is simply a continuation of what I have been doing?
i get that reality is always a blend... much like a good red wine or a fine whiskey...
Life is never a single malt ;-)
It is a beautiful morning,
I am being driven into NYC for two days of meetings,
Business is good and I am in the role I have always dreamed about...
My family is healthy and beautiful and thriving...
I am more than blessed...
And yet, the question persists.
I don’t believe I am smarter than anyone when it comes to living.
I do feel like I have a smarter tool, in the tool of “Harmony”, but I am just one of the gang when it comes to applying it to life...
I was riding in a taxi (Lyft) a few days ago and the old man seemed genuinely happy. He seemed retired. He was from New Orleans and had lived there his whole life. He talked about fishing and about getting out on his kids and his nephews boats, “I’ve had a few boats”... “I love fishing”... “I get out every chance I get... and now after taking the boys out all my life, I get to go out on their boat..”
He seemed genuinely happy. He knew a lot about his city and took great pride in it.
I listened to him and smiled...
Maybe it’s less about living a life I “love” and more about settling gratefully into the life we have?
Maybe it’s less about living a life I “love” and figuring out the things I love doing and making more time for those...
Ah, there it is... time...
That is the trade off...
Am I trading time for money, and realizing that I am actually spending THE thing that is my greatest treasure?
Maybe, we are all different and some of us struggle to “settle in” to life...
Maybe our wiring is different and some of us are designed to keep searching, to keep seeking, to keep reaching...
hmmm...
Maybe to live a life I love... I must simply accept that I love reaching... Maybe to live a life I love... I must accept who and how I am a little more honestly...
Maybe to life a life I love, I have to settle into the fact that I do love business and leadership and making things better... that is meaningful to me and satisfying.
And, I should keep asking the question... because our answers change...
And maybe someday the life that will call to me, is one on a boat...
Maybe someday I will have a sign...
”gone fishin’!”
Maybe living a life I love requires me comparing my life less and embracing my life more...
I will keep choosing to ask the hard questions... keep working to make a difference... and to love and live better...
I need to be more mindful of time...
and gratitude...
in harmony,
Nestor