I want to make your skin tingle…
I want to make time stand still.
For just one moment
I want my life to burst joy through yours -
so much so -
that it brings both of us to tears.
That dream - that want, for some strange reason, makes the struggle feel
purposeful
valuable
worthy.
You know what I’m talking about…
I felt it this morning when I watched Angelina Jordan sing “Mama” on America’s got talent.
We sometimes feel it in a song - more often in a live performance -
if you allow yourself to get swept away.
Sometimes we feel it more subtly when we are reading a book,
Or listening to a TED talk.
I felt it the other night when the sun was setting into a blinding orange sky.
Sometimes we feel it with a buzz beating last second basketball shot,
or in a commencement speech like Steve jobs.
At times we feel it watching the birth of someone or the death of someone.
That’s perhaps, why I have been writing less.
I want to make your skin tingle - by being a small force in a brief moment -
that makes you believe, that life is perhaps not perfect,
but magical…
Or, at least,
that it has the possibility of joy - that feels like magic.
I do believe the thoughts of harmony are pieces of that puzzle,
but more and more I realize as long as you can see the demarcations of each piece of the puzzle -
the magic may be rationally understood -
but not emotionally felt.
The puzzle, the vision, the possibility
needs to become real -
needs to be felt
lived
in order to be consumed, celebrated…
felt.
It helps to be aware -
some say awareness is the single most important element to magic…
awareness of our ignorance, of our insignificance, of our inconsequence -
along with the awareness of the awesomeness of our existence, of our unbelievable luck -
simply to be alive…
awareness of all that we don’t know and don’t understand…
The “Universe” is more often in my thoughts and narrative than it has ever been.
May it be God, Allah, The Force, Good or something without a name or a concept…
I do believe we are all connected.
I do believe that some people in some moments channel more force, more connection, more brilliance
and in some form - in some way
are able to reflect that back onto the rest of us…
And, if you are open,
aware enough…
You hear it.
You feel it… and it makes your skin tingle.
Sex is a short cut… maybe.
Drugs are a short cut… maybe.
I have high expectations of life… of myself…
And, I’m am tired. And, I’m excited. And, I am scared.
That maybe my expectations are too high.
That maybe I’m too lazy.
That maybe I just don’t have the courage.
But, the magic lives in all of us…
It just needs to be ignited…
With every sun rise
and sun set…
We get to try again,
watch for it…
feel for it…
You’ll know it when you are there.
Your skin will tingle.
Time will stand still…
joyful, real and magical.
It will last a moment,
and the moment will last…
bringing us to tears!
in harmony,
Nestor