As I sprint through this early morning, the wave of the day builds and I sprint to meet it.
It is, for these days, a typical one, full to the brim with commitments and activities.
And, today is a special day - a MOST happy day!
Today, 16 years ago, in the midst of another crazy time in our lives (I'm starting to see a trend), my second son was born and my world once again changed.
While I see the concepts of harmony so vividly in my work and in every aspect of my life, the harmony with those I love & those I miss seems to most quickly jump on my mind and page.
I love the line from Avatar (as I have mentioned on another post), "I SEE YOU!". It is, to me, so much more powerful, than I love you.
As the light of my mother fades... the light of my son, rises.
One of the very special gifts that my sons have given me, is that I believe they SEE ME, and I SEE THEM... We see each other in a most vivid, wonderful and realistic way. There is a raw honesty with my boys that I treasure. They know I am flawed, and they love me anyway. And, I believe they also see my passion and my purpose and my soul.
And none, quite as much as my second son does.
He is curious and caring beyond words.
He wants to be older than he is, and eventually that will change.
His mind is full of questions and his heart is full of want - though still shuffling to figure out exactly what the want really is...
At a young age, he already wants balance, and isn't quite sure how to achieve it. (And, then again, neither do I at a not so young age).
I have always been mindful that my relationship with my boys must evolve over time, in a way that my father's and I, did perhaps 25 years too late.
The balance of power, the role of teacher and mentor and friend, shifts slowly over time in the relationship between a father and son, and we must be mindful of it. As we go through life we become equals and then the son becomes the father and puts the old man to bed. I am mindful and grateful for that evolution, and I want to enjoy every moment aspect and phase of it.
I think, he doesn't love the attention of a birthday. (I struggled with it for many years. Some say I over analyzed it ;-)
Like me, I suspect, he struggles with why this one day is more special than all the rest. And, he struggles to feel worthy of all that he is!
And, that will change with time.
The truth is...
Every day with him is special...
I understand his curiosity and continue to push him to convert it into initiative.
He is, as many people have mentioned to me, an "old soul",
wise, beyond his years.
He inherited my impatience for life, which I should apologize to him for ;-)
He is a strong and handsome young man, that is working hard to build his wings to fly away.
His life, changed my life.
His journey, changes my journey.
Without his birth, my life would less colorful, less rich, less meaningful, less joyful.
Without his soul in my life, I would be lonely in a way that I could never explain in words, or possibly would never even know in emotion.
Today IS a special day.
A most happy day...
I SEE YOU... I LOVE YOU...
I know with great certainty that your journey will be a meaningful, rich and joyful one.
And, my world is in so much greater harmony because of you!
Happy Birthday!
Dad