I am still on "headspace" - the meditation app.
I have been trying to stick with it, despite the fact that this past week, thoughts of work and challenges in business seem to fill my mind...
Kind of like an overflowing pot with the faucett still on.
It keeps pouring over and that is just the momentary dynamic.
But, regardless...
headspace is AWESOME!
I am now doing a segment (10 days) on ACCEPTANCE.
Andy Puddicombe is the founder of headspace.
A wise soul.
He looks the part -
slim but strong
bald
just looks happy and content...
ANYWAY,
REGARDING ACCEPTANCE...
Andy says that we are conditioned as human beings to ACCEPT, and acceptance takes no effort.
It's an interesting thought - and feels right.
He says it's RESISTANCE that take energy - also feels right.
So, this morning he asked,
"What or Who is it in your life that you are RESISTING?"
GREAT question.
He says to FOCUS on the FEELINGS that the question triggers, as much as the answers.
Think about it...
Feel about it...
For me - I am fairly certain that I RESIST myself...
I accept alot... It feels good to accept...
But ME, MY OWN LIFE...
not as easy...
When I look deeper, I feel ANGRY...
And, I am not an angry person. I feel angry at myself... often.
not proud of it
but becoming more aware of it
I notice myself being angry at myself often for so many things that I have not done, not accomplished, not mastered, not become over time.
All wasteful energy of disharmony - I get that...
but, if I am honest, I am angry with myself alot - and that is what fuels me to do better, and that is what makes me so unwilling to accept good things that happen to me when they do - because in my mind, I think....
"yes, but remember all of the things that you still haven't done.. haven't become."
I know
I know
I know
What about harmony?
I believe in harmony - fully...
It's EMBRACING harmony for myself, ACCEPTING MY IS, where I still struggle.
The good news is that I keep making progress.
I am further along my own journey than I have ever been.
But ACCEPTING myself remains probably my own biggest hurdle.
Mr. Puddicombe
Don't give up on me ;-)
Letting go of the resistance...
A little bit more every day...
And your interest in harmony,
and these conversations are my constant reminder
my north star
my compass
ACCEPTING & EMBRACING HARMONY,
Nestor